After This Trip

There has been a lot of time to think on this trip, stuck in a tent or belaying somebody up the side of a cliff, sitting in a buddist monastary and listening to the sounds of chanting and the crash, boom, bang, broooom of horns and other strange sounding instruments.
My mind has cleared and in there a clearer vision of what I want out of life and the means to get to that place have unfolded. Within the mountains here I have found an inner trust of myself and the decisions that come from my heart to finally shine in my adventures through writing and photography. In this place I am free. I feel like a religious man out here. Spinning the prayer wheels and putting my hands together in praise and graditude.
Spirituality, here at least for me is within the meditation of the climb. The clearness that comes while I'm holding on to my two ice tools and I transend the fear and pain of hanging on above a 2,000 foot cliff at 20,000 ft. I would compare it to that of deep meditation. A walking, moving meditation of sorts. Life here is simple, get up and boil water, then eat and start your day. The evening ends in reverse. Know that I am getting ready to return to society, I am faced with the thought of wondering how I will take what I have learned here and apply it to my life in San Francisco. If there is only one thing that i will continue to use as a montra it is 'anything is possible.'
The doubts that I have had in my life about pursuing my dreams have dissipated on this trip and the paths to those dreams have been illuminated by realizing my right to living the thoughts that I have and the dreams that paramount my life. I have been looking for the release all along, for a mentor to explain to me how to unlock the universal wisdom that is within me. I can finally see the mirror in front of me that shows that I have become what i have thought about in my dreams already. I am here fullfilling one of my lifes biggest dreams. Climbing and photographing the Himilaya. My thoughts got me here, why can't I manipulate those same thoughts in to infinite possibilities for myself? I can and I will.

James